confessions

The further I walk in my faith, the longer the road seems to be.

And I find comfort in this... in the size of God, and the room I have to grow in him.

What discourages me though, is how often I feel myself walking backwards.

I have such little confidence in myself. I have such doubt in my ability to execute my callings.

Rejection paralyzes me.

I struggle with pride.

I take things way too personally.

These admissions don't release me, but instead I fear that they label me.

And I hide behind them.

Because when it all comes down to it, I'm the biggest bully myself has ever known.

And if I can't stand up to my own persecution, I don't have a chance against the world's.

Sigh.